Time

Always been looking at the clock, hoping things will change for the better. But, it seems not to. I know obstacles always be there for me. Yet I surrender to it. How could this happen? It shouldnt be this way. Shouldnt be. I should fight through my way. But I got no energy to do so. I just want to rot. I just cant. Its not me anymore.

Books

Books are my real world.
That opens my heart.
I need to calm myself down before talking to others.
Right now, is not the real me.
Is a girl who filled with negativity and anger.
I dont want to be the one who annoys people. Who throw temper easily.
I want to be my real self. Calm in handling all situations.

I know school is filling me with tons of negative stress that I have never felt before.
Last time, I used to be able to handle all these.
Yet now, im unable to do so.
Im trying real hard to fight through this.

Sorry to those, I made you angry or sad over my awful actions.

Tired

Im tired of waiting.
Is this really what I want?
Is this the feeling I want?

I just Rather be alone.
No distractions.
No worrying about others.
Freedom at ease.
Doing things as and when I like.

:(

This semester is just not me at all. Sick of now. Really no feel to study!!! Faster exams and get done with. I need to rest. 😭

2 weeks

2 weeks as of now. 😊

LIFE STILL GOES ON.

Trust

All in all, is just a word trust, that holds the bond within us. :)

HI IM HAVING MIDTERM TODAY.
PLEASE BE NICE TO ME.
I HAVE TO SCORE THIS PAPER WELL ENOUGH.
I NEED TO SU THIS MODULE BADLY.

SO APPARENTLY I STILL GOT A LOT OF THINGS TO DO AND I DIDNT KNOW ABOUT IT. HAHAHAHHAHA.

xiao sick

Dont feel comfortable today. Verge of vomitting this morning. Hard to breathe. Sigh, I don't want to depend on the inhaler.. yet im using now.. guess i need to run more, to train up my stamina again!

My?

I kinda miss my shabu.

Go class sioh

Omgggg. Finally saw my ec in class!!! Hahahas still look so dumb and handsome. Lol. 😂😂😂😂😂

难得 I come 830am lesson siaaaaa. Just because I dw watch recorded. LOL. So God gave me this gift. AHHAHAH. 😊

:(

Maybe its too stress or what. I just cant control my emotions. Throwing temprr everywhere. Vulgarities for sure. Crying non stop for no reason. I dont like it. I really dont like it. Fuck la. Still got so many things to do. Fuck. I dw do. Tmr midterm but I really cannot. After that, still got lab report. 2 midterms. Projects. Finals. FUCK I NEED TO BREAK. WHY GOT SO MANY THINGS TO DO BUT I JUST CANT FOCUS. WHATS WRONG WITH YOU XX. WHATS WRONG. WHAT HAPPEN TO YOU. YOU USED TO HANDLE WELL WITH STRESS. WHY NOT NOW. FUCK LA. FUCK YEAR 3. FUCK SCHOOL.