I haven't figure out what I want right now. Everything is like puzzle pieces. Im confused. What am I thinking about? Why am I still holding on to the memories? I dont cry anymore. But it just that sour feeling when all are here. Freak. Going to be exactly a year soon since we talk. You are living your own life, with happiness with her. I should do too, but its just stopping me somehow. Couldnt describe this kind of feeling I had right now. Just so weird~ dumb of me doing so.